November 14, 2017

Self-love for dummies

Exactly one year ago I declared my love. For everything around and within me. The love affair has continued and gotten stronger with each passing day. The love has made me do things I never thought I could or would or should. And that is exactly because I stopped defining my could, would and should. I “couldn’t” define anyway – I have been so hopelessly besotted and dreamy eyed to “do” anything. I just loved. Because non loving, I realized, took so much effort. Lazy is good. Don’t just do something, stay there – I heard myself say. So under […]
September 2, 2016

The one thing I wish for you

Dear son, It’s my birthday today. I was born as a Mom on this day four years back. I was never a Mom before that and starting that day, will always be one. Somebody asked me what my favorite things were to do in my free time. I said writing, singing and a few other things. And you are forgetting your son? he said. I said, that isn’t a thing I do, that is what I am. Like living and breathing is not what I do, it is me. It happens. Being a mother is me. In the three and […]
June 23, 2016

Is there anything like loving too much?

I always wondered what it is about motherhood that really hurts. Like someone’s pulling the insides of your heart together. The sucking in of your stomach when you say those awws. The stopping of your breath when you get the world’s biggest hug from your child after a long day at work. The nostalgia that swamps you when you look back at his baby videos. The sighs you heave unconsciously when you stumble upon that tiny onesie he could once fit in, the one you now bury your face in to see if it still has the same baby smell. […]