November 29, 2016

Life – lost and found

(Also published on the Elephant Journal) A few days ago I lost my phone. It was on silent mode, hence I couldn’t call from another phone and locate it. I had used it that same evening to order pizza. But I couldn’t remember for the life of me where I had left it. So I kept looking for it frantically. One hour. Many hours. Feeling some sort of separation anxiety. Finally I got tired and went to bed, hoping the next morning would bring better news. That day I had been going through existential anxiety bouts since morning. What am […]
August 24, 2016

Taking a break from myself

I talked in my previous blog about my interest in spirituality and my failed attempts at meditation. I also talked about having read books after books trying to know, find and learn – to the extent that all books started saying exactly the same thing to me after a point. And yet I remember nothing from those books. There is nothing that I can quote or summarize. And that, might just be the whole point. Remembering nothing. Unlearning. Someday eventually reaching the point where I know absolutely nothing and can only experience. Removing all layers of conditioning and masked truths […]