August 24, 2016

Taking a break from myself

I talked in my previous blog about my interest in spirituality and my failed attempts at meditation. I also talked about having read books after books trying to know, find and learn – to the extent that all books started saying exactly the same thing to me after a point. And yet I remember nothing from those books. There is nothing that I can quote or summarize. And that, might just be the whole point. Remembering nothing. Unlearning. Someday eventually reaching the point where I know absolutely nothing and can only experience. Removing all layers of conditioning and masked truths […]
August 11, 2016

What falls in love?

A little while back I took an interest in spirituality. And by that I don’t mean I started growing a beard, but just that I started reading some books on it. I tried taking to meditation, signing up for the latest buzzword for it – mindfulness. But I couldn’t even stay committed to the eight weeks of the course that it offered. Even when it was an online course that I could do in the comfort of my bedroom. And perhaps that was the problem, that the bed in the room with its cozy crimson colored pillows, was a bit […]
June 23, 2016

Is there anything like loving too much?

I always wondered what it is about motherhood that really hurts. Like someone’s pulling the insides of your heart together. The sucking in of your stomach when you say those awws. The stopping of your breath when you get the world’s biggest hug from your child after a long day at work. The nostalgia that swamps you when you look back at his baby videos. The sighs you heave unconsciously when you stumble upon that tiny onesie he could once fit in, the one you now bury your face in to see if it still has the same baby smell. […]